CHARGE  (a poem emerging from blocking out text)

Charge found

Metaphoric and literal forces engaged in conflict

Forced

Confront difficult questions

Willing to accept the present view and observe

The answers

The questions

Short life 

Angry, sour, obscured

A failure to observe

This poem is a reminder for me, to pay attention when I am faced with a charge, and by that I mean an eruption of electric emotion, resulting from an event or from an interaction with someone.  Often it means there is a conflict between two of my values.  I have to look inside myself to find out where this charge is coming from.  I confront difficult questions that are painful, bringing light to parts of myself that I have hidden away for self protection, or to bury shame. 

The poem reminds me that this is a short life and that staying angry, sour or obscured about my past or people in it, is taking my energy from the present.  To observe myself, noticing these emotions, deciding whether this is something that is still beneficial or something that I can let go of, if it is not serving me anymore.   Ultimately my hope is to increase a sense of peace, to be less reactive, and to resolve my “shadow” content. 

I will observe when there is a charge.  Observe without judgement, gently looking, inquiring to understand and challenge my past beliefs, to form new ones that fit me now.   These old beliefs and values served me well by keeping me safe but as I continue to change,  I will need to constantly re-evaluate to see if they are needed.  I am grateful that my body is able to give me this sign through my emotions.  “Hey look here, pay attention now, this part of you needs looking at, perhaps you have outgrown this way of being!”  

To inquire into your past patterns of behaviour that may be keeping you stuck please contact:

Lauren at Creative Spirit Arts Therapy

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